Crazy Clomid

I hate this drug. About a year ago I took 50mg Clomid once a day for five days, for 4 months in a row. It was supposed to help me develop a "better" follicle. And I responded well according to the ultrasounds, but no pregnancy ever resulted. When we decided not to continue with Clomid, I celebrated. It makes you crazy. Well, it made me crazy. I was having hot flashes and migraines, and the most amazing mood swings you can imagine. I would laugh and cry at the same time for no reason. But, it didn't work, so I stopped it.

Well, I'm on it again. Not to help with a pregnancy, per se, but to see if the clomid can suppress my FSH levels on day 10. If not, that's a bad sign for my eggs. So now I'm taking 100mg every night, and the hot flashes just started last night. A new side effect now: dizziness. When I sit at the computer for a while, it begins to feel like I'm floating around in an anti-gravity room, doing flips and spins. The mood swings are starting up again as well. I get all these feelings pent up inside that want to come bursting out, but none of them make sense, so I try to hold it in. A good trip to the gym helped me to unload some of that. But I look forward to getting to the end of this round of clomid. Then I'll probably never take it again.
The scary part is the blood test at the end. It's not the needles, cause that's old hat by now. But what if my FSH doesn't suppress? I don't want to give up hope of having a baby, but I have to be realistic about my chances. Nothing I can do to change it all now.

Oh yeah, and I learned online that bodybuilding men will take Clomid to reverse the testicle shrinking effects of steroids! YIKES! I wonder if they get hot flashes and mood swings too? Probably not.